Historic Moment

Again, I never thought that this day would come but today, I finally tendered my resignation after almost 5 years of working in the company fuhhh! Do I feel completely liberated, like I can finally exhale after holding my breath for far too long? Not so much, as I'll still be stuck here for another more or less 2 months to serve my notice. And I still have some incomplete, menyakitkan-hati tasks that I can't just drop and ignore.

But at least one task can be checked off the list. Now, moving on to the next hundreds of TO-DOs. Being adults suck okayyy! Except for the 'having-your-own-money-hence-can-do-anything-you-like' part hehe.

Life-changing News

I never thought that our lives would come to this, but as chanted by PCD in their once upon a time over-played song, Be careful what you wish for coz you just might get it, You just might get it, You just might get it hehe. All these while I've been telling dear SRB, "Let's cross that bridge when we come to it kay?". And it seems like we have reached the so-called bridge. Now what?

Well, I know that I have been putting up ambiguous entries lately (lately or since ever?), but too much changes have been happening/about to happen in my life that I could not even begin to write about them and express my emotions/thoughts properly. And today, we received an even bigger news that will alter the course of our lives forevaahhh! Okay, a bit dramatic di situ, but seriously peeps...this IS a life-changing news!

A BIG BEAR HUG to those of you who have called/smsed/emailed me personally, behind-the-scenes, to find out what's actually been going on, after the past vague little blog updates. I am truly touched that you care enough and know me well enough to acknowledge that it's not my style to share (too) personal stuff in this blog. You are such a treasure! I have more in store though hehehe.

Will try to detail it out once everything is sorted out. Good night =)

P/S: This entry doesn't help much at all huh? Hahahaha!

The Offer

The offer is finally in front of me.

More than anything, I AM EXCITEDDD!!!

Is that a sign?

Is the grass really greener on the other side?

Oh God, lead me to the right path amiiinnn...

Dear Everybody

Dear Sara,

Since we are really divorced now, I think that we should split up our memories too. I want the time when we met and the time when we went to the Grand Canyon. You can have our first date and the day we got married. You can also have the day when you left me, which I have no use for. I want when we moved in together and when we bought our house, and I want all of the times that we sat on the couch and watched television together. You can have the times we ate breakfast together, but I want most of the dinners. There are a lot more. Maybe we should talk about them.

- From one of Jonathan Bender's unsent letters to his ex-wife

To Sara Olson, my ex-wife, I leave any other money remaining in my bank accounts after the rest of my wishes are fulfilled, and do so with the hope that it can purchase some kind of happiness for her. I further leave to Sara any love that I may have had left inside of me when I died, as well as many of the things that we did not do together, the places that we did not go together, and the things that I did not say to her even though I thought them inside my head.

- From the Last Will and Testament of Jonathan Bender

The next great book about suicide that I can actually 'hafal' most of the paragraphs, after Nick Hornby's A Long Way Down. It's sad, heartbreaking but soo beautiful at the same time.

At the Crossroads...

Wish it can be more straightforward.

Wish life can be much simpler.

Ya Tuhan, tunjukkanlah jalan...amiiinnn.

Julie & Julia

The current read: Julie & Julia - My Year of Cooking Dangerously

"Today, when we blog about our weight-loss problem and our knitting and our opinion on the president's IQ level, we do it on the blithe assumption that someone gives a shit. But the surprise is that, for every person who's got something to say, it seems there are at least a few people who are interested. Some of them aren't even related."

"What I think is that Sam Pepys wrote down all the details of his life for nine years because the very act of writing them down made them important, or at least singular. Overseeing the painters doing his upstairs rooms was rather dull, but writing about it made overseeing the painters doing his upstairs rooms at least seem interesting."

Yup, true! But the rest of the book is kinda depressing actually. Oh well, let's see how it ends.

Tidbits

The vegan diet. Honestly, I can't remember now what exactly I ate for the past week (daily report my ass hahahah!). All I know is, yup I did manage to become 90% vegetarian for 1 whole week. The rashes seem to be better now, but maybe that's also due to me taking pills prescribed by the doctor. So am not sure whether being a vegetarian actually helped, but just to be safe, I'm gonna swear off seafood, eggs and nuts for now.

The used-to-be-weekly-but-now-monthly futsal. Lately, whenever I play futsal, I somehow tend to injure my fingers. One by one jari bengkak. But futsal is supposed to be all about kicking balls. So, apekah??? (I hope I won't get struck by lightning or something coz mom has actually requested me to stop playing for a while in an effort to take "better care" of my reproductive system. But oh well, when it happens, it happens lah.)

The over-played song. I am now officially obsessed with Justin Bieber, particularly him singing and dancing in 'Baby' video. Sangat comel okkkk? Can't stop humming that song. I don't care if you think he's lame, can't really sing, a wannabe or whatever, he's still the current apple of my eye hehe. And I was like..baby, baby, baby ohhh...like baby, baby, baby nooo...I thought you'd always be mine, mineee...

The AG Team. As per my normal practice with American Idol - pick one favourite contestant and stick with him/her through thick and thin. Once he/she is out, stop watching the show altogether. Unless he/she ends up to be the American Idol lah. This year, I'm rooting for Andrew Garcia woohoo! Usually, once I catch Ryan Seacrest's "Up next...Andrew Gracia!" announcement, I'll stop flipping the channels and wait for AG to sing. Once he's done performing, I'll either switch the channel again or turn off the TV teros. See how "loyal" I am? Theehehehee =p

Right, I'm off to fight my depression. Or wallow myself in it. What to do, can't expect things to go right all the time in life. If anyone tries to cheer me up with the "When things don't go right, you go left" joke right now, memang silap aah weyyy!

Little Parasites

I was not feeling sociable this weekend so I opted to stay home most of the days while dear SRB went to the office for his weekend duty. And that's when I came across some of the creatures that have comfortably made themselves at home around our lawn - our neighbourhood friends, harmless little parasites. They make the house feel a bit more homey, don't they babe? Or should we get rid of them due to some health risks that I'm not aware of?

So cutee! Reminds me of The Smurfs =p
A gorgeous natural orange, isn't it?

This just looks pretty. Sayang nak buang.

There're actual bird eggs in it! Saya sgt jakun hahah!

Khayra's Admirers

SRB just sent me this pic of me, lil Khayra and her 'admirers', which was taken from his iPhone a couple of months back. And awwww, don't these kids look cute together?

These boys adore Khayra so much that whenever they see her datang main kat padang, they'd stop whatever game they're playing and just run towards her, screaming her name. Until today, I myself don't understand why they like her so much, especially given the fact that she has not spoken a word to them, just gugu gaga baby talk je.

Sometimes, it becomes like a competition among them, "Saya nampak Khayra duluuu!" "Saya main dengan Khayra ni, awak tak dapat main dengan Khayra huhu!" Sangat kelakar! And my niece would just stare at them blankly at first, then adorable little grin would begin to shape. I'm sure she doesn't understand a thing, it's just that seeing/hearing people talk around her amuses her sometimes.

The one with the long hair (he's a boy btw - I know, I was shocked when I found out gak dulu hehe) is Khayra's no.1 fan. He's always the first one to ditch his friends and play with her, then even belai2 rambut and cium her pipi some more, adoiii terharunya tengok. Then he'd start to ask questions like "Kakak, Khayra kena gosok gigi tak?" "Khayra ada berapa banyak kasut?" "Bila Khayra boleh pegi sekolah?" omg letih gue nak jawab okkk. And no, I never correct him when he calls me Kakak muahahaha!

I wonder if they would still remember all these childhood moments if they get a chance to look at this picture again someday. Apehal makciknya pulak yang terlebih jiwang ni? Hahahaha!

Weekend Update

Went to TKC last Saturday night for the annual English Drama. Had quite a great time last year when I went to see it with Aida, so this year decided to bring dear SRB along, just to share the fun with him. But aisehman...it was the wrong year to show him what it's all about coz this year, 4 out of 5 plays kinda sucked. Most were lacking the 'wow factor', only the fifth formers did something different - dressing up as cats complete with make-up and cute little cat ears and tails.

As expected, the fifth formers won the Best Play. The fourth formers won the Best Props and Settings - they used a big projector with pictures as their backdrop, very modern and high-tech but honestly, me no likey this coz I love the look-and-feel of hand-painted backdrop. Apparently they eliminated the award for Best Backdrop, it has been combined to become Best Props and Settings - booohooo! Best Costume went to the fifth formers, the obvious choice coz the rest just wore ordinary, everyday clothes, camane nak menang kan?

Am I going again next year? Sorry, it's a 99% no. Perhaps I'll go again after they move to the new school in 2012 - a good excuse to check out the new place which I've been told, will be very the canggih manggih. Dah nama sekolah baru, build in the 21st century pulak tu, takkanlaa tak canggih kot hihihi~

On Sunday morning, we headed to Alamanda, Putrajaya from Seremban to go bowling with the workmates. 12 peeps RSVPed to come and join at 12 PM, but only 6 showed up on time and actually bowled. The rest cancelled and some arrived at 4-ish PM. What THE?!! Hampeh betul budak2 ni! Ni camana nak commit if buat plan nak gi pulau ni? Nak kena sampai tertinggal bot ape ke?

After bowling, which I suck at big time, we just lepak and chit chat at the food court, while sharing few rounds of waffles, banana split, popiah, abc. As long as it's all vegetarian, I'm okay hehe

Reached home at 6 PM and decided to remove the variety of weeds from our small lawn. Rumahku dah nampak macam rumah tinggal dah with the semak samun, ish ish ish sape yg malas sgt ni ahaha! Dad dropped by from his jog, luckily after everything has been cleaned out pheww (if not, kena lecturelaa daku hehe) and helped to clear out the mailbox. Did I tell you that he sometimes comes by, unannounced, then dengan selamba proceed to potong rumput, sapu sampah, throw out all of our junk mails and even water the plants at my house? Hehehe. Of course we never asked him to do all that but I guess there's just this powerful, unstoppable thing called...the love of a father, chewahhhh!

Now, let's get into the business of my ongoing vegan-diet:

Saturday 27/03:

Brunch - fried kuey teow (removed the tempting udang & kerang isk isk), mango cheese ball

Dinner - MIL's mihun soto with one beef begedel (tak sampai hati not to eat the begedel coz MIL was right in front of me asking me to tambahlaa, tambahlaa lagi adoiii)

Sunday 28/03:

Breakfast - MIL's nasi lemak with sambal udang (did not touch the udang of course) and timun

Lunch - a bit of rice with tofu, kentang sambal, terung sambal, sayur kangkung

Tea/dinner - waffle with choc & banana, small piece of popia (got udang kering in this, but did not care enough to stop myself)

Happy Monday-blues-at-work in advance!